I Love Me

Love for myself was something I had to learn.
While young I just expected it in return.
"Love me, and I'll love you back"
But the personal lack
Of love for myself
Made me insecure and weak.
A bleak demeanor overshadowing
Who God made me to be.
Blind, I couldn't see
Light at the end of the tunnel
I was an ugly duckling
At least to myself
Putting me high on a shelf
Collecting dust is what I wanted
So I could hide behind my pain
What did I gain?
But more self loathing
The quite opposite of boasting
But in the same circle.
Didn't want to admit
That I committed
The crime of
Selfishness
An ego that deserves the Abyss
To swallow it whole
With no funeral
A behavioral character
That needs to be rewinded
Back to the beginning
Where the 1st inning
Inhabits love
An amorous energy
That we forget to impart
Onto ourselves
Finding it hard to tell
That we are worthy
Of such a gift
I've shifted my mindset
And made a bet
To love myself
Something
Much greater
Than wealth...