My Ambition

Digging knee deep
No need for sleep
Nails filled with dirt
Immune to hurt
Determined to find
No matter the bind
What I'm looking for
Seeking that door
That leads to all truth
Like the fountain of Youth
It's desired
Most wont do whats required
To get there
But I dont care
The urge for oneness is pressing
Tired of guessing
where I came from
Fingers now numb
I keep going
No thought of throwing
in the towel
The enemy's on the prowl
So I've got to stay focused
On my ambition
Praying for fruition
Of the blood sweat, and tears
Endured thoughtout years
My plight
To gain sight
upon the gazing Son
With whom I am
One

I Love Me

Love for myself was something I had to learn.
While young I just expected it in return.
"Love me, and I'll love you back"
But the personal lack
Of love for myself
Made me insecure and weak.
A bleak demeanor overshadowing
Who God made me to be.
Blind, I couldn't see
Light at the end of the tunnel
I was an ugly duckling
At least to myself
Putting me high on a shelf
Collecting dust is what I wanted
So I could hide behind my pain
What did I gain?
But more self loathing
The quite opposite of boasting
But in the same circle.
Didn't want to admit
That I committed
The crime of
Selfishness
An ego that deserves the Abyss
To swallow it whole
With no funeral
A behavioral character
That needs to be rewinded
Back to the beginning
Where the 1st inning
Inhabits love
An amorous energy
That we forget to impart
Onto ourselves
Finding it hard to tell
That we are worthy
Of such a gift
I've shifted my mindset
And made a bet
To love myself
Something
Much greater
Than wealth...

Know Him

Gazing up into the endless sky

Enraptured by the twinkling of the stars

That pose motionless..for me

I feel Him

I feel the presence of a being so unlike us

But yet so like us

Because IT IS ALIVE

As the winds blows I envision it being Him

Softly caressing my face

Letting me know,

"Though you can't see me, I am here"

He shows off His existence in His creations

For me to see

But this is but a glimpse of who He is

And so I ask

Who are you?

What are you?

Questions race through my mind

About this Sublime entity

That seems to get a kick

Out of playing hide and seek

But Lord you say in your Word

Seek and ye shall find

And yet in my mind

I try to figure out

How do I go about

Being intimate with You

How do I elude the cares of this

Physical world

And take flight to a place where

You and I can connect spiritually

And so, as I'm peering upward in this beautiful sky

I question with inquisitiveness

What is it like to be:

Out of this world?

On the other side?

I want to graduate from "knowing Him"

And tap into the world of "knowing Him"

Knowing Him on a personal level

So that I can finally be one with the architect

That created everything as far as the eye can see

Including me